i just want to sing.

lately, i've had this ache.
it just sits in the pit of my stomach.
sometimes, it's hardly noticeable, and other times, it's almost unbearable.
it took me a little while to figure out the source of this ache.
i'm a little surprised i didn't figure it out sooner.

i miss performing.

i miss it so much, i ache.
i may not know everything that God has in store for me in this short, crazy life i'm living,
but i DO know that God gave me a gift.
He blessed me with the ability to communicate through music.
the lack of opportunity for me to do so is starting to take it's toll.
i need to figure out a way to fix this.
soon.

jaded

life has left me bitter and cynical.
i feel like it gets worse everyday.

i don't want to feel this way anymore...