three years ago today...

today i was completely out of it.
sure, i've been in quite a funk lately...
but there was something about today that i couldn't quite put my finger on.

then, about ten minutes ago,
my mom reminded me that today is my grandma's death anniversary.
i didn't even realize the date today...

i can't believe it's already been three years...


RIP Nana ♥
thinking of you.
miss you.
love you.

Easter Vigil

earlier tonight, i went to Easter Vigil Mass with my family.
i'm not sure what it was...
maybe it was the way all the candles lit up the church,
or the way the Elect seemed so happy to be getting baptized or confirmed,
or maybe it was just the true presence of God...
but i just felt at peace.
for once i felt completely at peace.


if only that feeling lingered longer than the time it took to get to the car in the parking lot after mass...

spring can really hang you up the most...

the story of my life as sung by ella fitzgerald...
[i friggin' love jazz!]




Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most

Once I was a sentimental thing,
Threw my heart away each Spring;
Now a Spring romance hasn't got a chance
Promised my first dance to Winter;
All I've got to show`s a splinter for my little fling!

Spring this year has got me feeling like a horse that never left the post;
I lie in my room staring up at the ceiling,
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!

Morning's kiss wakes tres and flowers,
And to them I'd like to drink a toast;
I walk in the park just to kill lonely hours,
Spring Can really Hang You Up The Most.

All afternoon those birds twitter twit,
I know the tune, "This is love, this is it!"
Heard it before and I know the score,
And I've decided that Spring is a bore!

Love seemed sure around the New Year,
Now it's April, love is just a ghost;
Spring arrived on time, only what became of you, dear?
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!

Spring is here, there's no mistaking
Robins building nests from coast to coast;
My heart tries to sing so they won't hear it breaking,
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!

College boys are writing sonnets,
In the "Tender passion" they're engrossed;
But I'm on the shelf with last years Easter bonnets,
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!

Love came my way, I hope it would last;
We had our day, now that's all in the past!
Spring came along a season of song,
Full of sweet promise but something went wrong!

Doctors once prescribed a tonic,
"Sulphur and moloasses" was the dose;
Didn't help a bit, my condition must be chronic,
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!

All alone, the party's over,
Old man Winter was a gracious host;
But when you keep praying for snow to hide the clover
Spring Can Really Hang You Up The Most!