single life!

even on Singles Awareness Day Valentine's Day,
i'm currently thoroughly enjoying being single.

loving family, fabulous friends, and plenty to look forward to...

life is good.

yay me!

:]

nostalgia

sometimes, nostalgia gets the best of me...

it's always such a bitter-sweet feeling.

looking back at the journey my life has been so far...
all the people that have woven in and out of the path i've been walking...
all the experiences that have brought me to where i am now...

i really miss some people right now.
:(

i also really miss my innocence.
and by that, i mean that i wish i wasn't as cynical as i feel sometimes...

i remember always being in such a hurry to grow up...
now i'm so sad because it feels like it's all happening too fast, and i can't slow it down.

oh, life...

hello self, i've missed you dearly.

i'm not exactly sure how or why...

i don't know what stars aligned,
what curse was lifted,
or why God answered my prayers...

but lately, i've finally been starting to feel like myself again.
i can finally truthfully answer the question "how are you?"
with a smile on my face and twinkle in my eye
and say "i'm doing well, how are you?"
i no longer feel the heaviness that's been weighing me down for the past year or so...
it's as if i just woke up one day, and snapped out of the horrible horrible funk i'd been in.
i no longer go to sleep at night feeling as if there was a huge gaping hole in the middle of my heart.

i wish i could bottle up how free i feel,
and share it with everyone i know.
it just feels that good.

farewell dark cloud.
you'd hovered over me for too long.
i won't miss you a bit!


[cheesy?
yes...
but do i care?
no. i don't give a fuhhh!
i'm just extremly thankful.
so get over the cheesy-ness and celebrate and be happy with me! hehe...]

i'm getting my life back on track

2008 was officially the worst year of my life up-to-date.
it was the year i sucked at life...hardcore.

but no more.
slowly, but surely, i will stop sucking at life,
and will finally feel like myself again.

baby steps...

i'm determined, damnit!