i just want to sing.

lately, i've had this ache.
it just sits in the pit of my stomach.
sometimes, it's hardly noticeable, and other times, it's almost unbearable.
it took me a little while to figure out the source of this ache.
i'm a little surprised i didn't figure it out sooner.

i miss performing.

i miss it so much, i ache.
i may not know everything that God has in store for me in this short, crazy life i'm living,
but i DO know that God gave me a gift.
He blessed me with the ability to communicate through music.
the lack of opportunity for me to do so is starting to take it's toll.
i need to figure out a way to fix this.
soon.

jaded

life has left me bitter and cynical.
i feel like it gets worse everyday.

i don't want to feel this way anymore...

my, my how much change time brings...

dear time,

you are very sneaky.
you always go by way too fast when i need you to slow down.
you also move at a snail's pace when i need to you pick things up a bit.
i almost swear you do it on purpose.

you also seem to be working together with change.
i refuse to believe that it is a coincidence when you and change both sneak up on me.
i have no doubt that change follows you wherever you go.

i'm just saying...

love,

me

FAIL!

okie, so i told myself i would do a better job at actually using this thing...

and then four months of nothing.

fail.

okie, but for real...
this time, i really will start using this more.
i need to start releasing my thoughts onto here more regularly.
i think my sanity will soon depend on it.
at this point, getting any sleep certainly does.